My Word!

I don’t know what it is, but what I say or what I commit to is very important to me. It means a lot to me. I mean what I say and I say what I mean. So, when my mouth starts a runnin’ and I start committing to more than I can do, I start to go a bit crazy.

That was kind of happening today with a client who has a deadline whom I promised I would accomplish a certain level of completion by said deadline. I did not. I can’t say I’m even close. The job was way bigger than I had imagined. So, I called to assure him progress has been made, and we’ll get there, even if I have to stay up all night.

And you know what his response was? He didn’t care! Not one bit. Hmm. Quite different from me who is stressing over this thing that is not even mine, that I must complete at least close to the promised – as somehow that appeases my need to be true to my word.

I am not certain why that matters so much to me, but it certainly does. That’s why anything I have to sign my name to is at least a minor struggle, because you can never completely agree with everything they want you to agree to, right?? πŸ™‚

I know I am being a little crazy… but somehow it matters to me that I be integrous in what I say and/or promise and what I do. It would be pretty cool if we all lived that way and were at least mostly close to that. But I think I noticed again today that I can’t promise tomorrow. No matter how hard I try, no matter how I am characterized, I can never achieve perfection. Only God is ALWAYS faithful to his promises. I am not him.

He keeps reminding me of that recently. πŸ™‚

Well, I am glad I am not, but with his help I will continue to honor people by being true to my word.

I’m gonna need a lot of help…

DC’s Once-in-a-While: Dangerous Thinking

The following is from a friend’s blog page. I was just doing some catching up with them on their blog pages, and noticed this short post from back in May. Just thought I would throw it out there to add balance (if only for me) to what I have been saying over the past two days.

Good stuff Dave.

DC’s Once-in-a-While: Dangerous Thinking

Spontaneous vs. Contrived Christianity

For a while now, I have been challenged by the difference between what we call Institutional vs. Relational Christianity. The institution thrives on programs and schedules, efficiency, details, and end results or products. The relational model thrives on personal, meaningful connections between friends. No schedule or other reason for gathering, just an ongoing, developing relationship, sharing our lives with our common Father. That has been the distinction I have seen with where we have been and where it seems God is leading us.

Today, after reading one of my posts from yesterday, a friend introduced an interesting new category I did not realize from my thinking on what we do being somewhat contrived. It’s really the opposite of what I was saying we do, and even spelled out in the definition I found (which I still think is perfect!).

Here is what she said in an Instant Message conversation:


Laura: truth is
Laura: spontaneous christianity is much more difficult to follow than contrived christianity
Laura: spontaneous means you get to follow and obey
Laura: at any given moment
Laura: and relinquish control
Laura: and lots of people get that feeling of “accomplishments” and “all is well with the world” when they participate in their contrived activities and don’t feel so much the need (SADLY) to truly listen for God’s voice and guidance
Laura: or when they do…they don’t know what it is
Laura: or are terrified to follow


And I said, “Right on!” A very interesting thought. Contrived is much safer than spontaneous. Some people really, really don’t like anything spontaneous. It is most definitely connected to their personality, but I think it’s something in all of us to varying degrees.

Spontaneous does not give us any control. But it is alive. And if led by our Father, it is amazing! I love it when I have a thought of a friend, even someone I have not had in my thoughts for months, and I call them or stop by or email and find out that at that very moment, they could use a friend. God is SO like that. He lives in the now. He knows the future, and exists in the forever past, but he lives in the now! It’s exactly how Jesus did life. Spontaneously. He was always available for whoever was there.

And it was real. It connected. It was not contrived.

People, please don’t think I have everything figured out. I am just a fellow pilgrim traveler on this journey. Each day God reveals something wonderful about himself or me or his creation, and I get to live it with him and his people. As much as I am able I want to be available for him. If I fill my calendar with stuff to do for him… I can definitely miss that. Not that good things won’t happen… I just miss HIM. He’s bigger than my own plans and short-sightedness… but… I so want to catch him the first time.

Feel free to comment on any of these thoughts, and please as I mentioned before… don’t feel stepped on by any of this stuff I am currently processing. πŸ™‚

The Colors Of My Calendar

I was just adding another item to our calendar today and I noticed a decided shift in the overall color scheme.

I use a program that comes with Mac OS X called iCal, and you can assign specific colors to the various categories that items on your calendar might fall into. I do. And in the past, our calendar has been very red (the color I chose for basic/ministry events). But I was just noticing that the red has diminished quite a bit, and the blue, which represents our personal schedule (dinners/gatherings with friends and family, fun activities, and even our parenting class that we’re leading) has increased dramatically.

I don’t mean that we are doing more. In fact, I believe there is much more white space than previously occupied those tiny little squares. What I mean is, it seems that our priorities have shifted, or at least the labels we choose have changed.

Our calendars are filling up with all things relational. I work in the daytime, and help people through my graphic and web design skills. Then our evenings and weekends are no longer repleat with meetings or rehearsals or services… they are free for small or even large group relational connections. Even just time as a family, taking a walk to a park or something.

The colors on my calendar seem to indicate we really are shifting from doing ministry to having relationships with the people God has put around us.

Don’t misunderstand. I am completely aware that ministry devoid of relationship does not really exist. You can’t really do ministry without people. But the focus inevitably (at least for those in leadership) drifts to the details of the event, rather than the personal and meaningful connection with the heart and soul of another brother or sister. And the calendar, with all its many colors reflects where our hearts are.

(This thought for today is perhaps most condemning of me, not anyone else.)

Many of our relationships used to be intertwined very closely with our employment, or our “ministry”. Yes, we were relating, but that was our job. That’s a precarious line all church staff must tread. Pastors “check in” with members of their congregation as part of their 9-5 responsibilities. Youth ministers spend time with the kids at their houses, at school, at their sporting events to maintain relationship, yes… but also as a part of their duties. It’s always an interesting thing when tax season comes around and we label our relational activities as “work related” miles or other expenses.

But it’s true! We have created a business of relating to people! Yes there is relationship but it’s also diminished because it’s the through the lens of a business. Just as my post yesterday suggested, it is somewhat contrived, and that creates a “sense of artificiality”.

Oh what a mess.

We are enjoying this very interesting shift in the way God is working in us, and through us. It is fascinating. I love that I get to write out and share my thoughts here. Please feel free to comment. And please don’t feel stepped on. I don’t intend any judgment or condemnation or belittlement of anyone reading this. I am only sharing what I see from my perspective these days as God opens my eyes to the colors of my calendar.

basicmm radio

Well, we did it. We joined the ranks of the podcasters. It was mostly because I wanted to test out a few things as I was helping out another guy with his podcast. So, I thought… what better way to learn?!! πŸ™‚

It will be a weekly offering of a rare or out of print song from the basic archives. I will (starting next week) offer a little introduction or history of the song as well. It should be pretty cool, especially for the hard-core basic fans out there. πŸ™‚

If you’d like to check it out, I posted the first two songs up there. There is a blog page, where you can download them directly, manually. That address is:

www.basicmm.com/podcast.

But the page is also available in RSS, and readable by any RSS reader. That link is:

feeds.feedburner.com/basicmmradio

But, for a real treat, we recommend using the podcasting software built in to the new iTunes 4.9! It’s great, and we are listed in the iTunes music store. It’s definitely the way to go! πŸ™‚

Click Here to open our podcast in iTunes.

(requires iTunes 4.9 – free download for Windows/Mac here.)

So, enjoy!

πŸ™‚

Contrived

It’s summer camp season again! People are giving up entire weeks of vacation to go spend a week at a remote, wooded location that is anywhere from a bug-infested, poorly ventilated, not to mention poorly decorated bunch of shacks and what we politely refer to as “cabins” to at times a crowded bare-minimum outdoor hotel. (There are some nice camps…) And each of these camps is teeming with young people who are eager to spend a week away from home with their good friends whom they see annually at these familiar stomping grounds. The campers usually outnumber the staff at least 4 or 5 to one and they know it. There are the typical games at mail call time, where the campers with the most mail are humiliated in some fashion, but for the most part completely enjoy it. And don’t forget the “Ride The Broom Around The Room” frivolity.

Yes, camp is a joyous time of year. For some.

(There is a reason that we are not there…) πŸ™‚

But camp got me thinking again about what sorts of things we do together as Christians. Yes, we have camp weeks as a fun place to get together, and get away from the routine. And, yes, some people really do enjoy the silly camp games. But really, the people who love camp love the opportunity that they have with so many kids at once who are away from all their normal distractions, and can really focus on a well thought out and well put together program that reminds them of some truth from Scripture, and the basic truth that God loves them, and offers them real life through Jesus. That is why people are so willing to endure camp.

And, that’s a good thing. People’s lives are definitely touched in deep and even magical ways at camp. Some people are changed forever. God works through summer camp. But more often, you hear of the campers who come home from an exhilarating week of God-life, thrilled to share that touch from heaven with all their friends and family back home, only to find out the rest of their world is not so thrilled to be touched. They did not share the entire experience, and so are reticent to go along for the joy ride. Inevitably, this leads to the overjoyed camper gradually diminishing in excitement over the next few days, until within a week or two at most, they are back to the same distracted life without God that they had before the intense week of Heaven on earth provided by the Christian camp.

Why does this happen? Is it the lousy folks back home who need to get a clue? Perhaps if they could just go to camp, they would get it too? Maybe it’s the camper who didn’t have enough conviction or fortitude to outlast the onslaught of their family and peer groups upon their return to “the real world”? Maybe we just didn’t pray hard enough?

It really could be any one of those things. But, more likely I think it is because camp is not real life. This one week of intensely scheduled God life, neatly packaged with all the trimmings, is not the real world. We even call non-camp life “real life”. We are practically admitting that it is all “pretend”. Who wants to live a life of pretend?

The word that came to mind was “contrived.” Listen to these definitions!

Deliberately created rather than arising naturally or spontaneously; giving a sense of artificiality.

Create or bring about (an object or a situation) by deliberate use of skill and artifice.

Whoa. That’s fairly condemning. But doesn’t that nail it? Isn’t that exactly what we are doing? And camp is just an intense version of what we do every week for our Sunday morning gatherings. We put together great music, and relevant and dynamic speakers, along with carefully matched messages through drama and song and we make sure it all fits to within 60 or 70 minutes, all while managing to create a comfortable environment in which to take it all in with minimal distraction. Even our weekly gatherings for “fellowship” are scripted. Just like the first definition, we leave no room for life to happen “naturally or spontaneously”.

It all comes back to how much we trust God. Everything does. How much can we trust him with the work of changing people’s hearts? Can people know about his love for them without us making it easier for them? Don’t we need to create an environment where they can more easily hear the truth that they so desperately need to hear?

Everything that we do as Christians definitely comes from a wonderful heart to share what we know with others. Often it is even motivated by deep love for them. Sometimes it is motivated by guilt or obligation, but that’s a topic for another day. The motive behind such contrived moments is certainly a noble one.

But it is still contrived.

And the result, as can be expected, is an artificial one. One that lasts only for a time. Until the next week, when we are together again. Until the next year when we are together again at camp. Until the next God-fix. So many people say that is why they need to attend a weekly offering from a local group of Christians. It charges them up for the week. They need to refill.

How sad! Jesus offers us Living Water, where we will never thirst again. We have complete access to him every day and everywhere. All the time. Unhindered. Personal, private connection with our Father, through Jesus. And his Holy Spirit lives right in us, working in us to transform us by renewing our mind. How much we are missing when we rely on a weekly or yearly dose of God to keep us going. He offers us so much more.

But, we continue to produce Christians dependent on the contrived. Dependent on an artificial substitute for what they really need — a relationship with the real and present God. Instead, we offer them a neatly packaged version of him, complete with a script to take home with you.

I am not trying to belittle any individual or group of individuals. I speak as one who has done these very things. I was really good at it, actually. I could put together some pretty amazing programs. An hour or a weekend or a week that would flow together seamlessly, leading us all on an amazing journey of thoughts and emotions that revealed to us at just the right moments the heart of God for us. The truth that he has revealed in scripture, offered in a relevant, and easy to digest package. And it worked! People genuinely connected with the living God. For a moment. In that place. For a time.

It was contrived. It was pretend. When they left, it was over. Perhaps it lingered for even a day or two. But with no basis in reality, it was only something for a compartment of our lives.

No, I am not saying this in condemning judgment. I am offering perhaps an emporer-is-naked kind of truth. We try so hard, pouring our lives into these incredible systems and structures we have created to “make disciples”, but in reality we are only feeding the system. We create people who are reliant on the system for their weekly dose of God. Even when we preach relationship from the pulpit, we deny our own words by the very environment we have created to convey them.

Summer camp is nice. It’s fun. And people who like bugs should do it. πŸ™‚ But it’s not real life. What we create there is contrived. It will not last. The only thing that will last is a real relationship with a real God who is a real part of every moment in our lives. Every one.

That is reality. That is where God wants to meet us.

Mormons

In case you are not aware, we reside in the town from whence came the entire Mormon religion. Back in the 1800s, a man named Joseph Smith lived here, and had a little vision which led him to some gold tablets which when translated revealed the true Christianity which men had twisted and distorted, so God used J. Smith to spread the news of this new “restoration” of the church.

Well, this week is the big Hill Cumorah Pagent, and there are some hundred thousand plus visitors from all over the globe in our little town that is used to only about three thousand inhabitants. It’s quite different. And interesting to watch.

You have tour buses, and tourists. License plates from all over the country. Lots of guys in white shirts and black ties with little name tags. Many of the stores either completely convert to LDS (Latter-Day Saints) novelty stores or at least carry some of the gear. And then there are the Christians who come to convert every Mormon during their one week visit to Palmyra. They set up tents and pass out literature and mostly just win the lost by badgering them. I am not certain how well that works.

But the best part was the t-shirts the bookstores have posted in the windows. There are some silly ones, like, “I love Mormon Boys” or “I love Mormon Girls”. Then there is a crazy one, like, “Praise To The Man – Joseph Smith”. Fascinating.

But, by far my favorite, and the winner of best shirt I wish I could afford from a Mormon bookstore….

“GO TO CHURCH”
– Moroni 6:6

Sorry… but, that’s hilarious. And I wish I could buy it. Maybe someday…

A Fine Line

I have such an interesting job sometimes. Recently, a few clients have reminded me that there is a strange dichotomy in what I do. I am paid (by them) to lend my expertise to their business or project. I am given the task of creatively laying out a graphics project, or a website or otherwise, which involves some subjective decision making. I listen to their ideas, then I get to flesh it out.

Well, at times in that process, my creative ideas do not exactly unfold as they might have imagined. Again, no problem, as it is their project that they are creating… I am just a tool.

However, the part that confuses me, and the fine line I must walk is that I do have expertise. I do (perhaps?) have a better eye than they do for certain things. At the least, I have more experience in what works, or what looks good.

So, at what point is it my responsibility to my client to say, “No, I don’t think that will work… you should go with my idea.” Offered in humility, that is supposed to be in my client’s interest, and part of my role as their tool? Perhaps?

I have had to do some things for clients that went against my better judgment. After a few attempts to sway them, I acquiesced to their (inferior) choice (in my opinion!) and just move on. But my next dilemma then was, do I want to put my NAME on it?! Do I want people seeing other people’s poor choices with MY name on it, like it was my idea, or at least sanctioned by me?!?

Hmm.

This one is puzzling me at the moment. No big deal. Haven’t really been embarrassed by anything I have done yet… but… I assume the day is coming, based on several of my client relationships.

It’s a fascinating line I walk every day.